Would you believe me if I told you that I've been sick, in bed for the past 6 weeks? I did have the flu, and the Monday after I wrote my last post, everyone started feeling a lot better. Everyone that is except me. I started to throw up. It was at that point I knew something else was going on. And low and behold, we got the surprise of a lifetime....I'm pregnant. Needless to say this came as a huge shock to us.
For those of you who don't know all about our past, when I was pregnant with Rachel I was sick for 7 months...and I mean really sick. So after that experience I didn't know if I would ever want to get pregnant again. We also knew that we really wanted to adopt. So we decided to not get pregnant and go ahead and adopt. I debated about doing anything permanent on our end, b/c I just didn't know if I would want to get pregnant again or not. Well about 8 weeks ago, I realized that I knew I did not want to get pregnant again. I did not feel the need to have the "experience" or even have a newborn again. So Jesse and I started talking about what means we would use to make sure that I don't get pregnant. We were about 2 weeks late on the conversation. :)
The last 6 weeks have been really hard for me. Obviously, we had just brought Isaac home...I was really hoping & planning on having a lot of time to just bond with him, and let him have ample time to adjust to his new surroundings. Being pregnant throws a wrench in this, but being really sick & being pregnant, makes this impossible.
I am going to close now, b/c I'm starting to feel sick again, but wanted to update you all on what's going on. I will try to write more soon. I don't have a laptop, and sitting makes me sick, so I don't have a lot of time to write. Jesse usually brings his laptop home for me on the weekends, so I can catch up a bit on some things. So I will try to keep some updates coming. (thanks for all of you who have been concerned)
